My card

It is 4:25am and I am about to crash. Last night I stayed up all night and today somehow my body held up just fine. I guess it is just secretly waiting to crash on me at the most critical moment. Well doesn't matter now I am gonna make it rest up so its evil plan will never come true.

Anyway I found this little quiz on SSR's blog Waiting on Life. The quiz shows you that which tarot card you are. I like mysterious and silly stuff like this. I chose the dragon set and the result is really fulfilling. It really matches my secret wish hahahaha.

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

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The date went alright. It wasn't awkward and there wasn't any silent moment. We kept talking about random stuff like TV shows, fitness, family etc. But there wasn't chemistry for sure. He wasn't as cute in person because he is extremely tall 6'5" and very pale and skinny. He is way gayer than how he looks like in the pictures and how he sounded on the phone. I guess he found the same about me, he probably didn't think I was as cute in person etc. I don't know. It is a bit disappointing. I would rather people just be blunt about it and he wasn't. I felt as if he was trying to tell me that he didn't think I was cute in other terms and that thought bugged me a lot. I might have read into things a bit too much but one thing for sure that fucking chemistry was absent and that was pretty much all I cared about anyway... oh well, I could care less now. It was an interesting night. It is my first official date for the sake of dating in my life. It felt weird and I felt so traditional. Anyway, there wasn't sex and I just drove home. Now I think about it, I am old enough, maybe I really start hitting the gay scene like an adult. It might awkward in the beginning but for sure I would be talking to people who are interested in me to begin with. Beh sleeping time.