Friday, February 02, 2007

This is just too sweet

There is a really good friend of mine in NY who just WROTE me a letter. Yeah how romantic. It reminds me of the movie "Cruel Intention" in which Ryan Phillipe played the main guy. He has said something that I never forget after I have seen that movie. "Write a girl a letter, that is romantic". I think it is beyond romantic, it is very old fashioned gentleman like. Unlike email, you have to know what you are writing about and spell correctly! A letter says a lot about a person. Again, compared to modern techs, a letter does not allow mistakes. My friend, Simon, composed the letter on blank sheets of blue letter paper. There is no lines on it and yet he wrote everything in perfectly straight lines. Also, he has this traditional eloquent handwriting script. At last he wax sealed the envelope! It is so sexy.

Let me talk about Simon just a bit. Simon is my type, yes, he is a bit fem here and there, but overall he is such a nice guy and I find that very attractive. Unfortunately, I don't think I am his type :<....I still remember the first time I met him. That was last year in December. I was still in the closet and acting all homophobic. First time I saw him, I didn't know what to think. He spoke French and that was intimidating because I thought that was just too cool. We talked about how he stumbled out of the closet by accident and his dad almost killed him. The story touched me and I think it impacted me profoundly. It really helped me come out. Simon was the first person to whom I came out. My logic was that he lived far away and he had no direct contact with my friends or family so there would be no damage to my life. It turned out to be one of the best decision I made. Consequently, I became more confident and came out to my other close friends too. Since then Simon and I have been talking very often on msn. He is a sex addict and I think that is totally hot. I am not nearly as horny haha. He always listens to me and helps me out on certain issues. He is just too nice and now he writes this sexy letter and I know he fucks a lot I think I am having a crush on him now. This may make things complicated =/... I already invited him to come to LA to stay with me and he also invited me to go to NY. I don't know if I can hold myself and not to ask him to fuck around with me lol. Oh sigh, the unreachable is always the most desirable. It is almost like fucking a straight guy or something.

I tried to upload a picture of his beautifully written letter but my cellphone's program fucked up. Oh well. He opened his letter with a poem by William Blake. It is called "I heard an Angel",

I heard an Angel singing
When the day was springing,
"Mercy, Pity, Peace
Is the world's release."

Thus he sung all day
Over the new mown hay,
Till the sun went down
And haycocks looked brown.
I heard a Devil curse
Over the heath and the furze,
"Mercy could be no more,
If there was nobody poor,

And pity no more could be,
If all were as happy as we."
At his curse the sun went down,
And the heavens gave a frown.

Down pour'd the heavy rain
Over the new reap'd grain ...
And Miseries' increase
Is Mercy, Pity, Peace.
His letter is on the second page and it talks a lot about NY dating scene and his thoughts on it. It sounds that he is not content and he is also looking for that special someone even though he can get laid whenever he wants to (damn him! :<). Also, it sounds like he is not coming to LA because of his busy schedule and his shortage on money. Sigh, so sad... He again invited me to NY. I am actually kinda scared of the NY club goers. If LA is over the top then I don't know where NY should be at. Besides, I am still not that confident to just talk to people in a gay club yet. Especially when everyone there has a perfect body and dance well naked! I don't know how I can roll with that. But last trip was fun and I am sure if I go again, I will have fun with Simon no matter what.
I am definitely gonna write him back and now I have to buy good paper. Damn, he is gonna laugh at my shitty hand writings! =/

1 comment:

Matt said...

I can't find a way to get in touch with you, but you seem like a guy I would like to talk to. So, if you want, IM me at MDDTB. Thanks!